My dearest A,

I’m sorry that I had to rush you yesterday. The feelings of losing you were so intense all of a sudden. Bursting out of tears like yesterday doesn’t really happen to me and I didn’t mean to let you see the weakest side of me.

It’s hard to explain the purpose of love, and its meanings of it.

Eric once told me, just imagine the person you love in her late 60s with wrinkles on the face and grey hair. And if you can still find yourself able to accept the perfect imperfections, then it’s love.

I always kept asking myself these kinds of silly questions after I found myself adoring you on the first day we met, and turn out Im so positive that my feelings to you are so strong and not replaceable. I’m so happy when the day you actually accept me, in a relationship with me, and take me as your boyfriend, that makes me feel like I’m the luckiest man in the world.

I have the faith, to hold your hands for the rest of my life.
I have the courage, to encounter all the obstacles that we might have to face in the future.
I have the love, to ensure you will be the luckiest woman in the world.

There are lines from the movies Whisper of the Heart, produced by Hayao Miyazaki. He said that, “因為你，我願意成為更好的人， 不想成為你的包袱，因此，發奮努力只是為了，想要證明我足以與你相配好的愛情.”

For me
愛一定是互相成長的. 我不會以愛之名束綁你.
你可以做任何你想做的事，
我也希望任何事情之前都可以想起我.
我希望我們的戀愛不只是就是戀愛.
而是信任，理解，成長，陪伴，也有考驗.
當然也不只是只有愛情的甜蜜.
還會跟你一起分享快樂和痛苦.
當你堅持不下去的時候，
身邊都有個無條件支持你的人.

我希望我們都能成長下去.
我想戀愛不是就單純親親，抱抱，牽一下手
也不是就弄個什麼情侶服飾.
也不是就放對方的照片為桌面
或者什麼事情都不做，互相耽誤.

對我來說，所謂的愛情.
不是單單要在對方摔倒時幫一下.
不是單單你喊我吃早餐，我陪你玩遊戲.
是跌跌撞撞走在這塵世上，
那些脆弱的我，可以被你包裹著.
沒有被現實險惡擊碎.
那些搖搖欲墜的你，被我拉著沒有倒下.
不是很刻意的，只是也許當時平凡的事情.
回過頭來發現已經歷了千萬坎坷.

A couple of days ago, I’ve dreamt of myself floating on the horizon of the ocean, with all the splashing. I didn’t drown at all but swim like a beast as if I had the fin. That’s something I’ve never had before as my dream has always collapsed when I get swallowed by the sea.
But I guess it is a sign from the universe that you are the one who gave me courage. That’s why I have a smile on my face when I woke up on that day morning

Sometimes, it’s hard to put up words to describe how deep my love is toward you. And when I tell you I love you, it’s not out of habit. I say it to remind me that you are the best thing that could ever ever happened to me.

希望我們都能成長.

鹿踏霧而來，鯖隨浪湧起，餘生終遇你.

My love forever yours,
J W